COMPliCAtED

Certain people are like open books

Plainly easy to read

But you are different

More like a book with a lock

Which you hold the key tightly

 In a closed fist

“People only hurt you”

Seeming cold and heartless

You refuse to let people in

This mirage you put up, a protective shield

Only so others will fear you.

Deep inside you are benevolent and caring

Fearlessness is impossible

It’s what makes us human,

Your intriguingly complicated nature caught my attention

Everything about you draws me in to dig deeper

Your mysteriousness triggers my curiosity

I have faith that one day you will open your fist

And hand me the key you so truly treasure.

BElONGiNG

I love you more than life itself

But I am scared to love

My heart is like the fragile wings of a dove

I’m scared to get too close

I feel like you will love me for a little while and set me free again

I live on hopes and dreams

I don’t know what to do

I doubt I can trust my heart, for it belongs to you.

I know that somewhere in your heart there is a place for me

I just don’t know how to find it

I could only hope that someday you will wake up

And find that while my heart belongs to yours,

Yours, too, belongs to mine.

{{DREAM BOi}}

Lately I've been thinking about you
Its making me go crazy 
Because I know I can't have you 
You visit my dreams 
and its eternal bliss
I never want to wake up  
So I take many naps 
I know what I dream is fiction 
A fairy tale I believe in 
But it makes me happy 
Even if it's only for a few hours.
In my dreams you're my ecstasy 
I see you smile all the time 
In reality I don't see it as often.
In my dreams you're mine 
and I'm yours
But really, you're hers 
It's funny you see 
I always lose one way or another
and you always seem to win
How would you react if you knew? 
If you knew what I was feeling? 
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0would you say? 
You probably wouldn't care
That's just who you are. 
I truly prefer the boy in my dreams 
from the boy I see nowadays 
But maybe you are that way 
You just keep him away....

{AVOiDED}

Your avoidance kills me 

It's like a disease

eating me away 

slowly but surely 

it'll eat me all the way 

You won't look me in the eye 

cowardness doesn't suit you

It makes me mad

but at the same time a little sad 

What did I do to make you act this way? 

Or did I do anything at all? 

You give me mixed signals 

you push me away 

then you pull me in closer 

could it be a figment of my imagination? 

or be the cruel reality? 

I try to stay away 

but there's failure every time

Something about you draws me towards you

you're the magnet, I'm the metal 

we weren't like this before 

we're complete opposites 

That's what made our friendship work

something came between us

And now you turned into a different person 

a stranger, i don't even know. 

[[fAllEN ANGEl]]

Born with wings 

wings to soar high in the sky 

A beautiful angel some would say 

As time passed by 

the angel's true colors appeared

Still a beautiful angel 

but with darkened wings 

BLACK like those of a raven's 

On the inside she feels trapped, lonely, sad

Yet on the outside she seems glad

and always smiling

You'd think she's oblivious 

to the problems that surround her 

In reality she feels restless, frustrated 

The only option she has left 

is to laugh to keep herself from crying 

She tries to take flight on broken wings 

Difficult; yes 

Impossible; not an option 

Her wings are a mirror of her life 

BLACK, like a starless night 

How can something so BEAUTIFUL be so UGLY? 

She lives in her past and its hard for her to move on

She's become nothing 

On the inside she's dead

Who will bring her to life? 

She's been living a lie

There's nothing inside 

WAKE ME UP! 

Call my name and save me from the dark

I'm frozen inside 

seems like I've been sleeping for so many years

I have to open my eyes to see everything 

So PLEASE, will someone save me? 

"tRUE" lOVE

Being in your arms 
felt like I was safe 
from everything around me 
Looking into your eyes 
made me feel like I was 
the only girl you ever loved 
you made me feel special 
loving you for 7 years 
and still feel that spark 
of fireworks when you 
called my name 
you were always there
when I had no one to talk to 
You were there to help me 
get through my problems you weren't afraid to hold me 
to baby me 
When we fought you always apologized 
even when it was my fault 
you seemed like the Perfect guy
For a long time I thought you were 
THE ONE 
the one I would like to spend 
the rest of my life with 
But every good thing has an expiration date 
I opened my eyes
and was struck with the truth 
The guy I thought you were 
was just a mirage 
A fake, a lie 
And just like that 
my fairy tale life was over. 

WiNtERSWEEt VAllEY

Wintersweet; my special place
My world between the world 
I'm its creator and Its only destroyer 
There's mountains in the distance
A meadow with my favorite flowers 
Trees everywhere, different colors;
Some orange, others purple or pink 
There are no seasons in Wintersweet 
Its a mixture of autumn and spring 
Its sunny and rainy sometimes 
But neither hot nor humid, just nice
There's a sea green pond where ducks and geese swim around 
Animals roaming round and round 
Filling the air with different sounds 
A golden swing set with benches here and there
And also a never ending brick road in mid-air
I choose who comes and goes 
For it is my world 
I go there when there isn't anywhere else to go 
All of my worries and pains vanish 
When I visit my dear Wintersweet Valley